I swear, I had this bad habit of taking other people’s words, advice, opinions, judgements, and criticisms and then making them my own.
It was like they handed me their pile of poo (even if well-intentioned), and I smeared it all over my body much like a pig does with mud. But unlike the pig, it didn’t feel good, refreshing, or serve me in any way.
And why did I do this, you ask? Because I wasn’t confident enough in myself to really know ME, to know what my soul voice said. I thought that ALL my answers HAD to come from others, because they were more knowledgable, and they must be able to see something in me that I don’t.
What a load of crap, and wasted time and money.
It also took a toll on my physical health. My whole digestive system was struggling because ultimately, I had lost my “digestive” fire, my personal power. I was ignoring my gut, as well as suppressing the energy in my solar plexus, and my body was screaming at me.
This past week’s full super blood moon / total eclipse got me thinking about my journey from what seemed like bondage to freedom. Every full moon I like to set intentions for the month, but I also make a list of all the negative thoughts and unhelpful behaviors that no longer serve me.
I then do some kind of “releasing” ceremony to free the baggage, and let in the positive stuff I want to manifest. This ritual usually involves some kind of fire. Because fire cleanses, frees, makes everything more powerful, better. (Just like bacon makes every bland food better.)
Fortunately, I released this particular soul-sucking habit many years ago. But being human, I of course, have plenty of other dysfunctions that I would prefer to let go of.
So last Sunday, I made my list of the top 2 for this month.
Here’s what I decided to release:
- A scarcity mentality surrounding my transition from being an insurance-based psychotherapist to a cash-only coaching / therapy operation. I choose to no longer dictate my worth based on what insurance companies tell me I am worth! Be free, self-limiting thought!!
- Feeling responsible for other people’s health. This stems from the caregiver, the healer in me. But I can’t have more vested in their self-care than they do.
Here’s how I go through the release process:
I first make a list of the thoughts and messages that are keeping me bound to the belief, as well as where those thoughts came from.
For example, colleagues and agency entities fed me the line that you can’t have a successful therapy practice if you don’t take insurance. I can’t tell you how many times I have heard this come out of someone’s mouth.
I then look for examples of where this is not true.
Fortunately, most coaches and consultants are cash only operations, so I didn’t have to look far. However, I also met a couple of ladies in my area that also do psychotherapy, and they only take cash. Both are highly successful. (Thank you Universe for putting them in my path!)
I next visualize a cord that connects me to these people and the belief.
I enthusiastically cut the umbilical cord, and watch them fade away.
I finally set intentions / affirmations / mantras that hold my new thoughts, and put them in my planner so I can recite and go back to it the entire month.
“I support myself as a coach and therapist by valuing my time and worth.” “The Universe puts me in front of my ideal clients who have the resources to work with me.” “I welcome and embrace cash money.”
Ultimately, you don’t have to wait for a full moon to release baggage. Some do it at the start of each calendar month. Others do new moon rituals versus the full moon. Just pick a time, consider other people’s shiz that you have made your own, and get rid of it!
You are so worth it.